Hi x2gangsta4applezx! It's been 2486 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga… It's been a long time, far too long. I can't even believe I'm back on this, but I decided to give this a shot since its very easy to write on here. A lot has changed since I've posted...it's been 6-7 years since I've been on here, my freshman year of high school. I grew up and am regretting that I didn't keep a journal of raw thoughts about some of my past times. I didn't even have my driver's license the last time I wrote on this, that thought alone takes me back to some fuzzy memories, some I'm fond of and some that I am not. I am glad I got into decent shape thanks to starting up football and rugby sophomore, junior, and senior year. It helped create a foundation of strength as well as discipline. I'm grateful to maintain the comradare that I built with my boys from my hometown of Lancaster. I was in a relationship with a girl where it began as a friendship with a desire that caught on fire. I entered into the many depths that a relationship can take you. Thinking about the stages of infatuation, the chase, human curiosity(doing new things together, exploring our personal interests and opening our doors to each other, doing each other...hah!), confusing/stagnant positions and finally leading to separation. It was around this time that I quit karate after doing it for 5 years, I just wanted a taste of something more different and dynamic. Its funny now because my interest in Muay Thai Kickboxing has revitalized the martial artist in me. I've been taking time off of it due to a nagging hip injury that I have not tended to, that is therapy that I need to act on instead of neglecting. Besides consistently kicking ass, I miss the artful aspect of Muay Thai and how everyday was self improvement and a time dedicated to fine tuning a craft of my own. I've begun college and I'm starting to understand more of what I want out of life. I want to accomplish things I can say that I truly wanted to do and seek out for myself, not necessarily what society or my parents would expect of me. A professional career is good for a stable income, but I know I can begin that at any time I can choose to, especially in the position I am in entering my senior year of college with a solid internship for a sustainable company. I've been flirting with the idea of taking a gap year to an exotic country. Traveling abroad has always been on my mind ever since I had my epic trip of discovery in Vietnam when I was in 8th grade. I've made many friendships at rates very fast, some lasting and some not. The categories of the “some not” can be broken down into some that were due to my neglect that I shouldn't have done, I don't like to be forgetful and it reminds me that I should reach out to some of my old buds. Wow, I think I got a writer's bug now...there is so much more I want to type but my stream of thoughts are going at rapid fire! Two things are stopping me now for the moment. 1) I'm tired 2) I'm hungry. Gotta go, stay tuned for more 'Blast in The Past' posts, I'll delve into these topics more and surely other ones as well. Better to be understanding of your past so you can live “fully” in the present. And I can only tell you one thing, I'm not “full” but I am starving in the present right now. P.S. Layout needs a face lift, white and blue wow!?? | 